Life Is Hard!!!

Life is real hard, one moment it gives you everything and the next it leaves you without anything! you will not have any idea what just happened. Life teaches you so many things which you have never dreamt of and it hard, in my case real hard. It has been a real long time I have blogged about something and I'm finding it so hard to start. After the two big incidents happened in my life, now life has no meaning for me and everything looks so empty and unreal. From 2013 I'm living the same life over and over with no difference at all. Each day and each month is same with so many memories! I wish I had a time machine to stop the time or go back to the old time.

Everybody says just move on and start thinking about new and start being happy but I don't understand how to start something new at the cost of the old memories. Those memories are unforgettable and I have lived the every moment of it and those feelings are just unforgettable. One day you have everything what you want and you do prepare many things to enjoy that moment which you are waiting from long time. And once you reach there and life start having some meaning and you start being busy and starts building up things what you have thought of! All of sudden you have nothing in your hands, everything again becomes empty and things starts haunting and there is only one person standing right behind you to hold you. It is so hard to answer peoples questions I just feel like hiding from everybody and never show them my face. But again I think what will happen to that person who is always there for me in any circumstances!

I'm trying real hard to get back to doing things what I use to do and feel good about it. I force myself to start everything back so that at least people around me feel normal. But every time I end up from where I started. I don't know where to go! If I go alone it's not fair for my husband even he is also in the same feelings what I'm in now. Though I have people around still my empty heart is not filling.. I keep fake smile on my face so that people around me should not feel my pain, but it is not fair. I'm not able to hide or show my pain and it is so difficult to face the world with the fake smile on my face. I feel so good to see when someone has a complete family, somewhere in the corner of my heart I feel bad for me and keep asking to god Why Me! Everyday I get up thinking that we will get what we deserve and keep waiting, but at the end of that day I'm standing in the same place surrounded by a same thoughts and feeling vulnerable. Nothing is changing everything is constant there is no movement at all. I know everybody has a problem in there life and many of them going through this pain, after thinking that also I'm not able to console myself and change my thoughts.. My heart and mind is filled with guilt and that guilt is killing me from inside and I'm not able to justify myself for what I have not done! I have no hope and I'm not able to see anything ahead, everything feels so painful and nothing feels right. The best part is I'm still living in my own virtual world where I have very happy family of my own.. I wish my virtual world would have been my real world! Now I have just given up, I know nothing is going to change I have to live with this pain through out my life. I just pray to god each and everyday no parents should go through this pain what we are going through, it is very painful!!

Mixology - Shake Shake Cocktail @DrinksOnMG!!!

Usual day started with a mix of emotions and had no clue how the rest of the day is going to shape up. After finishing work, checked my FB messages and there was a message from blogger friend 'VidyaLakshmi' who was kind enough to remember me to invite for Cocktail Masterclass hosted at #Drinks On MG by 'Nicholas Ord' & 'Alphonso Del Portillo' - winner of the 'India bartender of the year at Diago Reserve World Class 2015. It was a very good experience for me because I had been away from such events for a very long time. It felt like ages!!! Diago Reserve World Class was the perfect event to unwind myself.

Diago Reserve aims to transform fine drinking experience and cocktail culture around the world and in the home. It also offer platform for inspiring bartending talent who wants to make difference in mixology trend.

This event was hosted in celebration Alphonso incredible journey towards winning the 'India Bartender of the year'. #Drinks On MG was the perfect setting for the special masterclass where Alphonso showcased his winning concoctions - Atlantic Martini, & Botanical Heritage.

We reached there by early evening and it was good to meet few other bloggers friend over there. After a quick round of introduction, we all settled down eagerly waiting for event to start.It was quite an interactive session and lot of tips and tricks for making a cocktail. Alphonso set the mood for the evening with Atlantic Martini made with the Talisker, Tanqueray, No Ten, Orange, grapefruit powder and served in an elegant coupette.

Atlantic Martini was followed with another wonderful CIROC vodka cocktail- Botanical Heritage which was presented in chai tea clay pot. It was infused with green apples, tomatoes, basil, chardonnay syrup and a dash of Licorice syrup. I was very much impressed with the taste and flavours of this mixture. Definitely a winner to me.

The evening concluded with Golden Flip by Nicholas Ord. It was a delectably creamy and sweet creation, the rich mixture of Greek wildflower honey, tahini infused Johnnie Walker Gold Label Reseve, dash of apricot brandy and spritiz of orange zest.

Alphonso will now represent India and compete with the World's best bartenders at the Diago Reserve World Class Global Finals, to be held in Cape Town, South Africa, in September, 2015

#Drinks on MG is a good place to hangout with friends and enjoy the delicious food and awesome cocktails. I would definitely recommend this place!!!

Cheese & Chicken Quesadillas.

Cheese And Chicken Quesadillas is a great recipe for parties or picnic. The succulent chicken and cooked peppers are a delight when mixed with the melted cheeses. This recipe can be made even with leftover chicken or even mix vegetables and it can be pre prepared and freeze for a later use and they reheat quite well. Quesadilla taste better with sour cream and salsa.

Ingredient's.

4 flour tortillas

1 cup of boneless chicken, diced

1 packet fajita seasoning

1 cup of chopped, green and red bell peppers

1/2 cup button mushroom, chopped

1 small onion, chopped

1 cup of shredded Cheddar cheese

Salt and Oil as per requires.

Cooking Method.

Heat the oil in a large frying pan over medium heat. add chicken and cook for 8 to 10 minutes. Then add mushroom, fajita seasoning and stirfry for 2 minutes. Now stir in the green bell peppers, red bell peppers, onion. Cook and until the vegetables have softened, about 6 to 7 minutes. and set it aside.

Mean time heat a non-stick tava or frying pan onto medium heat with little oil. Then layer half of each tortilla with the chicken and vegetable mixture, then sprinkle with the Cheddar cheese. Fold the tortillas in half and Place onto a hot tava and cook both the side untill the cheese have melted.

Serve with sour cream and salsa.

Pasta Arrabiata.

Pasta Arrabiata is a spicy sauce for pasta made from garlic, tomatoes, and red chilli peppers cooked in olive oil. "Arrabbiata" means "angry" in Italian. Arrabiata sauce is usually accompanied with penne pasta and serve hot with Parmigiano cheese, but I have not added the cheese as I'm not a fan of cheese and I think it tasted better without cheese.. Try out the quick and easy dish and enjoy.

Ingredient's.

2tbsp extra-virgin olive oil

5 garlic clove, crushed

1tbsp red chilli flakes 

1 can of chopped tomato or 250gram chopped tomatos

1tsp dried oregano

Salt to taste

200g penne pasta.

Cooking Method.

Heat oil in a large saucepan over medium heat. Add garlic and chillies. cook for a minute. Then add tomatoes, oregano and salt. Bring to a gentle boil. Reduce heat to low and cook till all the tomatoes are nicely cooked. that would take about 15 to 20 minutes.

Meanwhile, cook pasta in a large saucepan of boiling, salted water following packet directions, until tender. Drain pasta and set it aside. Now add the pasta to sauce, toss to combine. Cover and set aside for 5 minutes (this allows pasta to absorb sauce).

Spoon into serving bowls and serve hot with some cheese.

Coconut and Dry Red Chilli Chutney.

Coconut chutney is a very easy and common side dish made in every South Indian households and served with idli, dosa, vadai and even with upma etc. The recipe is so simple and so easy and can be made in no time, there are many variation that can be made in a basic ingredients. Almost every chutney need tempering with mustard and curry leaves, but this recipe no need of any tempering it taste very good without even tempering and this chutney can be served with hot plain rice topped with ghee. Do try out this recipe and enjoy.

Ingredient's.

1 cup chopped coconut

10 dry red chilli

3 garlic cloves

5 to 6 curry leaves

1tsp tamarind paste

Salt to taste.

Method.

Dry roast all the above ingredients.

Then blend everything together with little water to a smooth paste.

Serve with idli, dosa.